EXTRA JUICE: "We have an active sex life, so I'm not sure why he needs to look at porn..." #79
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▶ PlayHi, girls. A bit of a long one. I'm on the go. I started studying in my dream course in
▶ Playuniversity. I'm 21. I had to go the long route to earn this place at the drop test school at 16
▶ Playfor mental health reasons. I sat a PLT course, which I loved and assumed I would feel the same
▶ Playabout college. I even took a gap here to work and get experience in the industry, which I also
▶ Playloved. I'm four weeks in and dread going in every morning. I found it very hard to make friends
▶ Playas most of the girls are after coming straight from leave and search. Days are the only and the
▶ Playworkload is very hard. I'm struggling to manage my money too. As I only work one day now in comparison
▶ Playto my usual five, the vibes remind me of skill with some lectures, treating like children and
▶ Playgirls being in clicky friend groups from day one. This caused me a lot of anxiety to the point
▶ Playwhere I'm feeling sick on the way to college and today I had my first panic attack in two years.
▶ PlayI spoke to my parents and they said they'd rather see me happy than then say I'm in right now,
▶ Playbut it feels so defeated. Like all my hard work is for nothing. I didn't try hard enough or I
▶ Playshall try to stick it out. I really would like to work in this industry and there are other ways
▶ Playaround to put in reality. I'm simply not happy and spend 90% of my days in there so far,
▶ Playwishing I was anywhere else in the whole world. Any advice you have would really be
▶ Playappreciated. Love, listen to your girls on the pot. I think if you're sitting there wishing
▶ Playyou were somewhere else, you're never going to fully focus on the work that you need to do.
▶ PlayNo, you're not going to have to pull yourself out of it. No, true. Like would you rather sit in
▶ Playsomewhere be so unhappy? Yeah. Or would you rather maybe go a longer route to where you want to be
▶ Playor maybe a more difficult route but be happy? Yeah, generally. Yeah. It's a long time. It's not
▶ Playhappy for you. If you're like, there's only four weeks in. I felt like this at like year three of my
▶ Playcourse, but I was like, I only have one near left. I had three years behind you. Yeah, it was easier
▶ Playto have that in my head, but if you know you've three years ahead of you, that's a more charity.
▶ PlayBattle like I'd say leave. Yeah. Not in the worst your mental health for that many years.
▶ PlayNo. If you hate a course and it was a year long or a few months long and you really hate it
▶ Playor whatever, I'd like to stick it out. You pay the money, like put a lot of time.
▶ PlayYeah, no. I hate college. Yeah. I only lasted three months. I went to college to wear my own
▶ Playclothes. I don't remember one thing. But you know, like not one thing, but that was because I was
▶ Playso unhappy in there. I hate it. Yeah. I think I wanted to go to feel the college experience and then
▶ Playwhen I was there, I was like, what are you doing here? Like, yeah, I just don't. It wasn't for me at all.
▶ PlayNo, I think yeah. Like Charlie said, like if you're if you've three years ahead of you and you're
▶ Playonly four weeks in and the fact your parents are supporting it as well saying they'd rather see
▶ Playyou happy at the end of the day. You're happy in his counts for so much more than having what a
▶ Playdegree in a piece of paper. Well, I that's coming from me who dropped out, but I don't know. Some people might
▶ Playsome people might prefer to have a degree and be unhappy. Yeah. I think again, if it had
▶ Playshort time left, I'd say stick it out. Yeah. Hand sticks up over three or four years. You go
▶ Playor you're dead. But like maybe I wonder could you could you change anything? Yeah. First before
▶ Playleaving. Try a different way. Different course even. I know you're setting this, but like you can
▶ Playprobably get into your job either way. Afterwards, why haven't I had a degree in anything? Can you do it?
▶ PlayYeah. Yeah. You can like you can see it because my friend, a lot of my work didn't, who don't
▶ Playlike a certain degree, don't work in that, that like character anymore. Like it's just a lot of jobs
▶ Playyou need a degree for what doesn't specify which. Okay. So maybe like she could change in course.
▶ PlayYeah. It's a little similar. But like also don't like put forces out through something just because
▶ Playit took you long to get there. Like obviously you don't the P.S.C. you thought you'd love it.
▶ PlayYou worked in the fields how you'd love it, but then if college isn't what you think it's going to be,
▶ Playthen just don't force yourself into something because you feel like it outwards yourself. Do you know what I mean?
▶ PlayYou can get to where you want to be different ways. Yeah. It's annoying that you said like I'd be
▶ Playlike I'd be real stubborn like that's how I look. I have to say now after the P.S.C.C.C.R.
▶ Playor after a drop in it's going to get I think like that, but like it you'll actually damage yourself so much
▶ Playplace. Yeah. You can through that. I think if you hate it that much already, maybe I think give yourself
▶ Playanother one to me. I'll tell her. Give it to Christmas. Yeah. And if you still hate it as much
▶ Playby then, leave. Yeah. Don't go back. But I wouldn't don't go straight away after four weeks. I know
▶ Playyou feel really horrible now, but like it's also that feeling and something new again. Like there's
▶ Playalways I always get down to the face. The emoji is like no. When you used to do it. Yeah, like that. I
▶ Playused to get a feeling my belly like when he started something like college. Yeah. It's just like a
▶ Playnot real uneasy or something like I think it's so known about. Yeah. But yeah, you might get
▶ Playinto routine. You might like start liking it. Like they could change one day. Yeah. So I think
▶ Playgive it to I wouldn't say keep going and hope a change is one day. Give yourself an end day. Say
▶ PlayChristmas time. If I still hate it, I'm going to leave and put myself first because there's always
▶ Playdifferent path. And maybe that's just enough for you without me. Because you're going in somewhere
▶ Playevery day with sick belly. Yeah. If you're going in already now and that you hate it, you're
▶ Playjust going to keep it. Yeah. Not until a change about it. Don't make permanent decisions on
▶ Playtemporary. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like sure. So I'd wait for Christmas and then maybe see
▶ Playhow you feel, but I'll always put yourself first and try and brace it a little bit until Christmas.
▶ PlayBecause when you have in your head that short term, you might start liking it and then you might
▶ Playsay, I'll just say to the store. I'll just say to like I think when you look at some of like
▶ Playyeah, might make you feel better doing it a little bit. Yeah. I'll call you.
▶ PlayLike, like, to me, porn is like, like all those porn sites and famous porn.
▶ PlayLike it's never like he's going to be struggling on the road and see this famous
▶ PlayI can see where it would make you feel a little bit less confident kind of thing.
▶ PlayI think no matter what, what you think about it, I think if you've seen it, what your
▶ Playown two eyes, your boyfriend's hurt and that like on his left half, you do for
▶ PlayIt's kind of one of the things that you don't really want to think about when I come
▶ PlayI don't think I've never, like I've never ever been in this situation or I've never
▶ PlayAnd I think it's like, it's so different if your boyfriend's like sign up to
▶ PlayBut I was listening to a podcast actually and they just have my porn stuff and like men,
▶ PlaySo like it's probably, he's probably watching that since before we met you and it's just
▶ PlayI just feel like I don't like, like obviously I shouldn't know when to do laughs.
▶ PlayI've seen your searches and it's just like, if I can feel it, but you if it has my
▶ PlayAnd I understand that because it's like, because you always want to think that your
▶ PlayDon't bot Latin in like if you feel like it is something that's going to be played on
▶ PlayYeah, because you only get yourself to work so if you just need someone to be like,
▶ PlayYeah, tell him how you feel, but tell him you're not telling them enough to look at
▶ PlayLike, yeah, it's not something else in this world like that you're after catching them
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▶ PlayI felt totally blindsided and never seen a woman as everything was normal and we spent
▶ PlayWe went out after the break up to speak and give our clothes back and I said, I would
▶ PlayI'm a type person to try until I can't anymore and I don't give up on people easily.
▶ PlayWhen I see him, it just wasn't the same person I've been with for the last two years and
▶ PlayI'm worried about how he made decisions down to his mental health and short now his friends
▶ Playas well as me because I was so, because it was so out of the blue as we were very
▶ PlayWe're both very young and in the early 20s but I genuinely do see a future with him.
▶ PlayI feel like I'm a little bit in a row and I just need all the advice I can get from him.
▶ PlayI feel like normally when you see a break up coming like things lead up to it, yeah, or
▶ Playbeautiful things that would lead to that and you're not shocked like yeah it's not yeah it's normally not a shock
▶ Playum it's really hard to have when you're looking at someone breaking up to it and you're like
▶ Playyou meet up with them a few weeks and once I turn you're like you're looking at them and like
▶ Playthey're the same face they're the same they're just not bloody it's not them it's the scariest thing
▶ PlayI remember like something just took over yeah it's like that's something like that was your
▶ Playperson that was like so many trusts and you don't even recognize them even though they're the same
▶ Playsee the good and everyone and like keep things in your life the way they are
▶ Playsometimes shit like this has meant to happen yeah I know I can realise a few years after
▶ Playyeah like there's a plan for you yeah and I know you've been completely blindsided and taken like
▶ Playcompletely off-guided now but like sometimes you just can't change things as much as you want to
▶ Playbut like you you force and to keep him around and not force and to keep him around but you know
▶ Playwhat I mean like trying to keep the relationship going might be the worst thing for you so it might not
▶ Playactually benefit you at all yeah yeah and also I joined this survivor some broke up man I was like
▶ Playplease please please like trying to get back together like I was so annoying that's actually
▶ Playvery annoying but then I feel like if I hadn't been that annoying we probably would have got yeah
▶ Playbut then he was like oh my god you're actually so annoying yeah like that was like which obviously
▶ Playwas not meant to be anyway yeah fine but like I think that it makes it worse when you try
▶ Playto force yourself once more yeah then they just like you're because all of all that person needs is
▶ Playspace yeah space to realise that's why they're breaking up in space so if you're not giving them
▶ Playthat space at all they can't even think yeah exactly I think take a day by day yeah I know you feel
▶ Playso hurt that like you really did see a future with this person but I think in the long run you might
▶ Playrealise no yeah I feel like a two year mark as I was very telling yeah two two and a half years
▶ Playis it yeah I've never got past well I have now yeah well I didn't because I've always
▶ Playgot but like that's kind of it's a good point you go again just yeah I think so sure and then
▶ Playapparently seven years as another one didn't make it there it made just six oh well then yeah
▶ PlayI think leave on be for the moment you can't I know you're saying I think you're doing a
▶ Playfermenting help reason or something but like you're like you can't even if that is the case you
▶ Playcan't do that and talk to you that if you have to give him as time make like him have his decision and
▶ Playmove on as if you aren't together and like hopefully in the future something will come up if he's
▶ Playthere meant to be and if he's good to you if he's meant to be your person you will be yeah
▶ Playbut if he's not you're still so young as well yeah I mean you're early 20s and I could might be
▶ Playwhere it takes and be like look I feel like you're short and everyone I hope would like if if you
▶ Playever knew so I come here whatever like but you just can't make someone's decision for them
▶ Playso not as unfortunately as much as you want as you want to hear like the ladies I've done all I've
▶ Playbeen there but the t-shirts honestly um yeah as hard as it is I think let them
▶ Playhave the break up it's what he needs right now whether it is short now for now reason whether it
▶ Playis meant to help think it's it's what he wants yeah and yeah you're like sure this is the worst
▶ Playpart the worst part is the shock the blindside and this yeah and then it was the day goes days go
▶ Playon like that's easier yeah you wake up and you're like oh my god I haven't talked about that
▶ Playwasn't the first thing we came to our bed yeah it's weird that's a way of you're like wow yeah
▶ Playthis is this can be a good sunny day it's crisp yeah oh a crisp winter day yeah it's gonna go
▶ Playbreak up if it's very winter thing I think today's uh well summer is uh oh yeah big time
▶ Playhow close am I um you'll be okay yeah and let's know any updates but I feel like if he is
▶ Playsure now over now where I feel like he called come back a few weeks we like what's the focus
▶ PlayI do yeah maybe just things maybe his brain's just fried maybe he's just having one and things
▶ Playwhere you try on a house always at the pan including you including his friends yep he just needs a
▶ Playwhole over half life but let us know hey gone and yeah if he doesn't come back then he was never
▶ Playmeant for you meant to be and you're too good for the last one we have then is high birds love you
▶ Playso much look forward to listening every week so I've been with my boyfriend for a year now but on
▶ Playenough but on and off for a few years before this as we've always found our way back to each other
▶ Playand can't seem to leave each other alone I genuinely think he's the love of my life and he always
▶ Playsays he wants to marry me and could never see himself with anyone else over the past few months
▶ Playhe's been spending almost every single weekend drinking and taking a two fire every time after
▶ Playmultiple nights so I've seen that he had been texting other girls and even made a Tinder account on
▶ Playone occasion when I brought it up he said he was just wrong I didn't know that he had done it and
▶ PlayI forgave him on these occasions he promises it will never happen again and he's off the drink as
▶ Playhe can't rest lose in our relationship and then he goes out the next week and does it again and
▶ Playeven if it doesn't do it and even if he doesn't do anything wrong I feel so much anxiety that it
▶ Playwill happen again and left wondering why I'm not good enough for him and only to only want me I want
▶ Playto believe I want to believe he will change but it feels like a never ending cycle at this stage he
▶ Playsays he never wants to lose me but feels like at this stage he puts every he puts our relationship on
▶ Playon the line almost every week any advice would help do you think he would be capable of change or
▶ Playmight be in life I know people talk and I'm scared I look like the biggest fill for forgiving him each time
▶ Playno I don't like this man no no see how do you strongly make a Tinder I can't drunkenly text someone
▶ Playand I can't even get to eat every one I open like that how do you do that I think people mistake
▶ Playlove with being that feeling of like young people you know couples that like can't leave should
▶ Playher own they're like so toxic oh yeah like they shouldn't be together but they can't they're like oh
▶ Playwe can't leave like we just keep coming out each other because it's toxic yeah yeah because it's so
▶ Playyou miss the toxic side because you're like a drug to each other like that doesn't mean
▶ PlayI know I always say like people are in to be like like bad bad like but that's not the same as
▶ Playsomeone we meant to be yeah as you've been pulled back into each other because someone's like text
▶ Playin each other again it's scary it's but you keep going back to each other because you're you that's
▶ Playwhat you're you know keep going back to each other because you're letting each other go back to each other
▶ Playyeah and there are ways of not letting that happen yet that's comfort when you know someone is like
▶ Playit's easier yeah it's so easy trust me yeah to just go back but yeah it's not always the best idea
▶ Playthink that's your own I don't know what I'm making a tender that would be my final straw like
▶ Playhow's that even happening that isn't right now what you want and then you say I won't drink and
▶ Playthen you just drink again someone can promise you the sun moon and stars you're on the weekend and
▶ Playthen a lot of boys down to what they do on the weekend why is it not drinking every weekend why can't
▶ Playyou bring it on a date no yeah this sounds like a very young relationship to me really yeah very very
▶ Playthis sounds very young definitely I think your question yourself your question yourself and why
▶ Playyou're not good enough for him you've anxiety every weekend like that's not worth it that's not a nice
▶ Playthat's our ratio that's not low no and don't think that it is just because you have these strong
▶ Playfeelings towards sometimes you get them feelings mistaken for love what's not it's just the addiction tip
▶ Playto literally like a drug it's a yeah it's not your hormones literally be addicted to that first and like
▶ Playand the ups and the downs and like you might even realize we actually are addicted to the
▶ Playdowns because you look too so high they're waiting on the on the high and the high because you come
▶ Playback and say I love it so much I really like I think the amount of times that you've forgiven him
▶ Playis showing him that you're alone in that behavior yeah and I've been there I've done it like
▶ Playthey're not they're not saying in their head like oh she's a good person like she's taking me
▶ Playback they're saying she's a fool what can I do now what next yeah how much more can I get away with
▶ Playhow before I can I push the ground yeah yeah because I pushed this much and she's taking me back
▶ Playso each time they're gonna chip off a little bit more yeah to get further and further and further
▶ Playyeah until one day you'll just crack yeah you'll explode and it'll be something big big yeah big and
▶ PlayI think setting a set of a bound like if you'd have set that boundary and we've all done it where we haven't like you're especially the service relationship.
▶ PlayYeah, you want to believe that the person is so good and like oh they've never do that to me.
▶ PlayI think it's what I need to learn as well going forward and things like setting the tone.
▶ PlayWhereas when you don't do that at the start it leads into like a good lead into shit like this.
▶ PlayHe can just say I just didn't I don't remember right now Tinder what's going to be next I don't remember Kissing a
▶ PlayI don't I love to say I do think he's capable change what I don't think he is if he's promised you
▶ Playsome of his times already and hasn't what's going to make him actually switch and change.
▶ PlayThere's not going to be a point to that if that makes sense like words are just so easy to say.
▶ PlayHe's telling like and that's just you being a good person think and that all but he could change.
▶ PlayYeah he could he could also go to the moon but yeah realistic as that yeah and if he could have
▶ Playhe should already already would have yeah but he doesn't want to obviously or can't do like that
▶ Playhow he is I feel like we sound really harsh in this but what's real we're being in through
▶ Playyeah sometimes that's what you need yeah easy yeah I crash truth I think I think you're being naive
▶ Playto the situation yeah I think let them know exactly what you've said to us let them know like
▶ Playthis is how I'm feeling I'm literally on your baby feels shit my last yeah my last thread with you
▶ Playwalking is it you're walking until I start I'm walking until I'm walking until I he's like
▶ Playcan't keep doing this like make it make it known to him how many times you have forgiven him
▶ Playand how many times you have taken him back because he's probably just thinking
▶ Playthat they're probably not even relevant in his head so make make that known to him let them know like
▶ Playthat it's your last your last shot yeah can't keep down this not quite for you want to look back and
▶ Playbe like I wasted all those years yeah and even be like why should I take you back again like what
▶ Playyou've never changed once before why would I believe in this time to avoid crowd wolf yeah yeah
▶ Playbecause they say oh but this time is different but why yeah but why how why how are you ever going
▶ Playto prove that to me yeah yeah well let us know yes but I think you I think you know that you're
▶ Playbetter than this situation yeah already so you can send us a lot of us into homo drink or go
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