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Hold my drink with Charlie Nenele, a go-laid original podcast, proudly supported by

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Now we've definitely both had a boy we'll never share another relationship online ever.

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No, never ever ever. For some reason I feel like I'm gonna be like the

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auntie who like chose a career over it, man. No, it doesn't have any kids.

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It's kind of married love with just stuff. I can't wait to get married.

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we head in. Very handy. So this week on How to Drink We Smoke About How to Single

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our tips and also how we're getting on we can single talk about kind of a recap

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or reflection on our last two ones because it's in two ones since they're a rake of

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themselves and like I were feeling and I like moving on and all that good stuff.

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Yeah we don't have a way to tell you.

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So we're in a couple of A&E. My Dudes.

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That's what they are. And our seats themselves as well.

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Well I think if you're a newly single or anyone's been to a rake of at all.

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And everyone has. Yeah at any stage in their life.

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One of the only things in the world that like everyone's gone through isn't there?

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Yeah and everyone can relate to yeah. I think that's why I can like relate to rake of someone

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because it is everyone. Yeah. But if you're yeah if you're anyone actually if you're here when

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you relate to this I think yeah and like it so you hope you enjoy.

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So welcome back to How My Drink We're Shining and Ellie.

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Welcome. The Goal Out Original Podcast. If you're new here welcome. I feel like we have

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and welcome to any new listeners in a while. I know yeah.

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What if you're new here? Our podcast is like a group chat between your best friends

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or a girl's breath with one of my outweighs fill all of the tea and the gossip and

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help strangers with your life problems. Yeah. If you like that's the play for you do tell strangers.

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I feel like I haven't done that in a while. Have you not?

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I haven't re-heard many problems to tell.

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Where I am. That was all changed. Next time you're really getting nervous.

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But yeah if you're returning let's turn it down. Welcome back.

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How my drink is like every Wednesday we also have bonus episodes every Monday so you can listen to

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more of us two days of us lucky ducks lucky to. So we do a bonus episode where we just do our

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advice section which is called Seagus and the Seals. So you can listen to them there as well

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everyone. Yes. So I'm back after when we create us. Yes. Oh it's been a few we create us.

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Since before I meet her. Yeah yeah. I love her here. I'm so happy to be back.

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I love it. I love it. Yeah I was unwell yes I would tell you about when a few but yeah

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I'm back. I'm back. Are you still dead after me? Oh surely. I'm not really right to be honest

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either don't I think this hell here just fucks me up. I'm dumb with it like I can't keep down this.

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Yeah you can now. No I really it's put me in bad form. I'm put myself in bad form.

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I had a fresh weekend that's again not to rub it in but it was the best fuck yeah.

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I was like I can't wait to speak to no one sitting my bad journal on my eye.

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Were you calling out of wedding? It's not like you just went out like yeah that was great memories

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to me. Oh like best weekend ever. I don't think anybody will or I don't think anything

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will ever talk out weekend. I probably not even my own wedding will talk to me. Oh no I swear to God

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it was unbelievable. It was so good. I was a bright face adorable. And he cried off the

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oil. No that's so. I cried anything you know me. That's what that was just so.

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There's just so many emotions. Did you cry at Caitlin Tony's wedding? Caitlin Tony's

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are our friends whether it is. Yeah I'm always crying. Weddings are just so cute. Weddings are

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adorable. I actually cried today in the salon. What? Which I believe. Oh but I just I don't know

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I'm just feeling emotional. But she was a jammer jammer. She in my hair. She was she's a guy

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you just be so proud of yourself like with the live show and so she's like imagine like younger you

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look looking at that. I was like I was like is she kind of make me tear up and then I started

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tearing up. Oh my god that is so. That is so. That is so. That is so. The live show is tomorrow.

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Holy God. Well if you're listening to this it will have been in my video past or else it will

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be today. You can listen to some of my songs. Oh yeah yeah. But yeah how do you feel?

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Nerves. Yeah. Why? I'm just getting it up pulling you. I know I can say. No you won't. I'm just

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getting I just won't say anything. No of course you will. I just want my energy to be fully

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back for tomorrow. Yeah you need to yeah yeah. And like you can have a little coffee or something

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before. First shot. I can't keep it in sight. Or if I see another shot. Why did I think I was

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fucking the experts at Yeagerbumps? I was dying the day after the wedding and I was like why

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I'm either gonna I had a pint first. Oh of your tips? Yeah and I was like the pint leader saved me

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or send me. Yeah but it sent me. Oh I got really tired then and I know I need something else now

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I need a bit of a pick me up like and red. Well as an Yeagerbump is it Red Bull? Yeah. The day of the

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wedding I was just on the same level the whole day. Mm-hmm. Just because obviously we were

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since half six this morning. Half that and ready. Not that morning. Get ready. Do you start? Do you

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start? Do you start going to get ready for when? Like when you're getting your makeup done. Yeah

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it will drink for me more. Yeah. So we were drinking all day so my drunk level just stayed the same. Yeah

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like and I nearly drank myself so over. Oh god. So the Sunday I was like okay you're gonna get

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married today. Yeah so someone said come on we go do a shot and I was like okay

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I'm gonna say something different I don't want to keep around like yeah and someone mentioned

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a Yeagerbump and I was like oh I haven't had one of them in years and then I remember just every

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time I walked into the brown walk back out I was like girls I'm on my turd and then it was

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getting to girls. Oh god don't forget to me post them on my stories all the time and then I think

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I did I was trying to think of it I think I did about 12 Yeagerbumps. Yeah oh it black

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Joe clapped my number. No no no when you're drunk when you when you put up a story. Well my

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dog was around the first minute. Why do I do it? Why is someone trying to say she's doing

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for me. They're like can we get a picture when you put up my story? When you put up in your

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first story I don't know how to be like no I should be though from just like okay I will

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like really follow me and all I'm like oh no I saw your message you're like you're sending me

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wet all these random people like sorry I was like oh I need to read that never I need to delete

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the Instagram when I review something. But if they ask you like I thought you'd be getting them in

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no no no I take out the videos of the shop but like that I like oh yeah like you're

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going to yeah yeah I always don't have these random people that I read before I'd

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want to go on my story and I'd like it. No oh god I just get off first oh yeah I don't

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remember going to bed around. Oh god like do not remember don't remember leaving the

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put but I just cause it's because you had it in your head I'm gonna get really drunk. Oh yeah

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yeah that was my plan I was asking the girls I was like I was like sloppy drunk and they were

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like no no no you weren't yeah that's what I like I was definitely still folks yesterday

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more than when I woke up. Really? 100%. Yeah yeah you would do it. There's no alcohol in your system

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like doesn't just go no no it's just go to like the evening. Oh I don't think mine did. No even when I

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got home yesterday from the wedding I was sitting there looking at Bobby and I was like I was kind

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of forgetting who he was and I said oh god that's not my brain I was looking at that like it's

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dog and oh my god I'm just scared myself I was like I need to go to bed for a few hours. Yeah yeah

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so once we had and then we'll go.

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last night, like, and I was like, no, back to bed,

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back to bed.

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It's just that alcohol even your body

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you're gonna be feeling with drained.

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We're down, so it was a hammer.

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Oh yeah, we need to.

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Yeah, I'm doing so we're 2022, like,

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the rest of 2020.

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Well, I have a few, like, I'm just gonna, like,

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I feel like I should have one drink,

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or like, at EP, I don't even want to drink,

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I don't know.

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No, yeah.

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We just need a bit of a time off.

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Yeah.

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I think I'd be able to start it off with one drink.

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We just had, yeah, we just had a bit of a wild

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summer, like, yeah.

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Well, look, we got single, we had to.

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It was a load, yeah.

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You have to be, you just have to leave it after a while,

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but it's important to go back on the rest.

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Yeah, you need to get it over yourself.

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Yeah, exactly.

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So that's what we did.

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Yeah, we just drank ourselves into hate and drink.

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Yeah, and that's fun.

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Yeah.

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But for the live show, I, if you ever,

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because you've done massacres before,

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for like, make up and stuff,

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if you haven't pulled a blank, no.

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No, I cry at them though.

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Yeah, well then, you're not gonna pull a blank at this,

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and you have me with you as well.

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Yeah, thank God.

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If something, like, if you go blank,

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I have someone to say,

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when I poke and it's like this,

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you're doing both on the pitch.

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Yeah, we find.

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I feel like we know if one of us

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has gone more quiet to say,

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to say something, yeah.

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So we find, when you say,

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do the telepathy,

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do you want telepathy?

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Yeah, that's it.

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Yeah, that's it.

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Yeah.

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I drew a blank one time when I was singing.

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I've never, I wasn't even that nervous,

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I don't know what it was.

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I've seen someone like you,

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and I just completely forgot the words

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for the second verse,

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and I just left the stage.

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What I thought I used to sing on the songs.

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What I really do love.

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It was in a skill challenge,

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I was something like,

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but I literally never happened to be,

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I never used to get really that nervous to be forgotten.

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I went to a stage, I was like, what the fuck?

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Well, I was in a room where,

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like, why did that happen, like,

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Oh God.

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So strange.

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No, that wasn't happening.

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No, it wasn't.

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But it was weird,

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because I wasn't nervous that happened.

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Yeah.

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I never happened to,

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so I never had like,

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it's an after.

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Yeah, that's all.

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But we haven't even talked about it either.

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I know.

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I just started to say,

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I got a little bit of a room to my life.

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Yeah, I touched on it last week.

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Oh, you did?

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Yeah.

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I said, we wait until you come back.

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Yeah.

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I'm feeling everyone in.

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Do you know what?

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I thought, like,

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where do we begin?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And we begin.

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And we begin.

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So first of all, we were there obviously for ourselves

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for a few days.

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Yeah.

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Just lovely, steady memory.

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Lovely.

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Gorgeous hotel.

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We'll be saying there again, definitely.

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Yeah.

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Simply beautiful.

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Oh, gosh, it's a smell.

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Lovely as well.

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I just, you loved the smell of it.

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It's smell of it.

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Like, I remember getting in at what was after I'm knee,

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so I got an eight in the morning.

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Like, it's quite a fancy hotel.

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Yeah.

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And I got in because the taxi's,

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I'm knee to end at six.

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I couldn't get a taxi with two errors.

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I walked in my little, like,

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rave real fun.

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And he's like,

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the couple's like,

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walking around in real fun.

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We're gonna be like,

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we're very couple of hotels.

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It was.

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Yeah.

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Like, we looked like a couple of like,

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yeah, I was talking to Charlie and my lady.

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She was like, get off me, people.

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We really think we're together.

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I can't, if there's men here,

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they can't think we're together.

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Yeah.

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Well, it was really,

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it was really cool.

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People were so nice.

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I would go there again.

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And then I would end up coming over

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then on the Saturday.

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And then on the Saturday, if I did think of,

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Friday, Sean and I came up.

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Yeah.

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And they, yeah, they brought the party.

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They really did.

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Yeah.

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At least we had those few days before that

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to just relax a little bit.

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Yeah.

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But now it was so good.

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I can't even think of any of this like,

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oh, it was me just good.

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Yes.

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It was so drunk in that.

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Dude, is he our pictures?

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We talking about that.

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No, awful.

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Oh, awful.

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I don't remember taking them.

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I'm like this.

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I don't remember taking them.

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Brown.

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Oh, it looked like I had been out for days.

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I want the second I got there because I just

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want my hair up like, took the shoes off.

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Yeah.

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No.

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So good.

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Oh, it makes you so drunk because,

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I don't know why.

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I think everyone's just so giddy as well.

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You do be giddy, yeah.

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You know, everyone around, yeah.

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Yeah.

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Also because the drink is on your table.

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You can just pour in yourself.

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You're not waiting at the right.

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And you just keep like,

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top of your cell phone even when you're

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doing style even empty.

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You just put, oh, it kind of retains the bug right now.

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I was putting it over in.

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And you can't even take it.

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It's great to use anyway.

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On the best of days.

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So,

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I'm very drunk.

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That day.

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Can't actually remember leaving.

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Wow.

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Oh, S.E.K.

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I see your birthday.

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That was great.

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Ball.

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Sal goods.

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One of the best nights.

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I think I hate the mask people.

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Oh, there's this fellow that runs around.

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He looks like, um,

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to see look like.

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It looks like cousin is from the Adam Cosley.

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That is so funny.

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Say that because,

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yeah, I'm at the girl in my hair.

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Say it was only sat talking with her.

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Him.

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Yeah.

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And I haven't heard him.

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I mean, I just,

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because she was saying she's like him because of her hair.

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Oh,

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yeah, but he's like,

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cool, it's cousin.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Just hair,

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just hair.

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And I just don't like the way he moves.

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I was done.

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So, he reminds me of a window at the car wash.

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Oh, yeah, yeah.

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The things in the car wash.

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Is there anything?

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What's the thing called?

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What's the thing on a plane?

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What's the thing called?

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I don't know.

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What's the thing?

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What's the thing?

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What's the thing?

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What's the car wash?

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No,

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my car needs to look wash.

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That was things,

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but I don't like them.

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No, it is a bit scary,

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but I also want to run away and talk to my back to him

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and hidden the car and I throw a,

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don't like them.

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I don't know what it is.

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Some of the people in costumes,

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I don't like,

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I friend,

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he was like,

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she hates like any,

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um,

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see like,

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the leather plaques.

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Yeah.

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Johnny's were also like that.

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People in the costumes.

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Yeah.

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It's a thing.

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It's definitely a thing.

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I think I have it.

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Yeah.

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I just don't like it.

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Something about it.

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I just find,

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like uncomfortable.

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Yeah.

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Now what's for it?

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It's unsettling.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Like I'm not scared in a sense.

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But you don't like it.

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Like,

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Yeah.

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It's because you don't know who's underneath.

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I think so.

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No, it is.

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I think so.

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I think so.

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I was like,

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I've no client either day for it to go and walk.

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And there was like this bear in a costume sitting like on the road like this.

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And I was like,

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Oh, I see.

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I'm hanging your watch going on and talking like on a main road.

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On the main road.

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And you had a sign.

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It was obviously for like a bed company or something to say when a client,

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like,

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and he's just sitting there like,

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way even like this.

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And I was like,

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I think that's he looking at us and she's like, oh, no, I can't tell.

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No.

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Oh my god.

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Terrified.

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That's what it was in like,

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it was not in contact.

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Yeah, what are you doing here?

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Like,

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anyways, work and anyway, whatever is advertising.

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I also need to be just for you and ourselves.

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It was just a lot this year.

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Obviously the club for that open.

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So it was just more intense last year.

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We didn't get to do that last year.

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Everything close at one o'clock.

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Yeah, so you'd go back to the party somewhere, but like it would never be that intense.

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That's a good place.

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Yeah.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Like we were in a major just six o'clock in the morning.

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Yeah.

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So that was the best.

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No, that's the Konesia and oh, it's from my favourite night.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I'm not even mad into all of them big clubs.

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But I'm the usual good, isn't it?

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Yeah.

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And I love Lancers.

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Hey, are you hating that?

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Yeah, you hate that.

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I hate that.

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Lancers very heavy.

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Very tackled.

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Not a lyric in sight.

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I would have loved to go to Calvin Harris.

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I know.

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I was having a stories.

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It was either what you see to your cock and say, ah, good, yeah.

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Yeah, that.

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Yeah.

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You want to go back?

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Not to lecture.

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I need a year off.

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Would you not go back to this year?

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I don't know.

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Actually.

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No.

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So for September.

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Oh, shit.

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No, I wasn't going back in September.

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What did you know?

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How did you go?

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Oh, it's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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It's all closed.

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I think so.

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I think it's mad that it just closes.

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It isn't it?

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Everything just closes.

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I know.

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The whole thing.

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Obviously, it makes so much money during the summer that they don't have to.

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Yeah.

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Or is it the later when I beat them?

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But then besides the parts of the drinks in that country.

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What if you live in Ibiza?

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Oh, well, all the rest ones we still have open like.

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Yeah.

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But there won't be enough people to be to the clubs to be like.

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Oh, yeah.

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They would be like 10.

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Yeah.

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You're not 10.

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You're not 10.

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Yeah, you do.

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Do you know?

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It's a private show.

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Yeah.

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And that's what that is.

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But.

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Yeah, we're back.

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We're happy to be back.

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Happy to be back.

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And we are excited for the live show.

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And we'll tell you that later next week.

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Oh, God.

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For this week's way to tell you, we always do a story of like, we can't take their ends

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of like a bit of drama or something that happened in their life.

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Or just a random story.

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Yeah.

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But it's not that you just happen.

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So I ended up in tell hospital.

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Where are they after a beat?

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So it was.

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Let me say it after a beat or was it?

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It's the next day.

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No.

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That was last Monday or in eight.

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I was doing it.

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Yeah, so we go anyway.

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Two days after we decided to get in this, it was the day before I think I was really

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bad.

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I was like, it was just a hunger pain.

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Okay.

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And I went to my kitchen and I every single morsel of food in that kitchen.

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I had two flake bars.

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I had crisps, bread.

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And nothing was filling the hunger pain.

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It was a good thing.

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Yeah, it was like, it was a good thing.

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It was like, it was.

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It was like, there was a hole and there was a quarter book.

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It was.

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It was.

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It was this eighth, right?

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It was.

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And then that was fine.

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It was.

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It was.

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I was obviously so wrong with it.

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It was.

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I don't know what it is.

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I'm only back for a week.

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It probably hooked up.

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And then the next day I started getting these mad pains.

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And like every time I get them, it felt like that,

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to my butt.

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It felt like that pain of like,

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do you ever really need to shoot yourself?

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Not to shoot yourself, but...

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No, it's not to shoot.

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Yeah, but it's like a sore.

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Yeah, it would never be on the toilet as soon as...

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It was just really to your mind, right?

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No.

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Fuck, we're out.

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We're out of breath, aren't we?

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That feeling, like, aw, and like, that feeling.

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Yeah.

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But that times a hundred and it doesn't leave even if you go toil.

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Oh.

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Then the pain was so bad I was bumming with the pain.

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And also bumming from whatever it had.

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So then, went to any, was waiting there for 12 hours.

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12 hours with this pain.

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Guess I'm not going to do it anymore.

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Pain, because it's not there.

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Like, we can't give you no more.

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And that, like, thing of not being able to not eat.

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The deal was like, it was...

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Are they home-trained ones?

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Like, you didn't know if you were hungry or you

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didn't?

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Yeah, yeah.

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So, you ended up bringing me up a sandwich.

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I did.

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No, but...

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But every time I ate it, it was like the second I put something in my mouth, it

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was that hurting?

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It was so weird.

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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It was like, I'm nearly...

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Yeah.

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And what the problem ended up being, is gastritis, I was basically in your line and

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I was stomachs and flames.

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The tabins were now at, I feel like stomach acids.

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Okay.

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So, like, obviously acids were irritated.

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So, obviously when I was going to eat something, this sort of started producing acid to

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break it down.

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Yeah.

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And that was...

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Yes, it was...

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And I put it on a drip.

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Oh, they gave me gava scone.

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Oh.

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The top of it, I've never felt so sick.

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I've never had gava scone in my life.

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I'm full of course.

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Is it minty?

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I actually feel like rationing.

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I'm not even that sick.

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It is.

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It's so horrible.

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No, it tastes like licorice.

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Oh, like sambuga?

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Yeah, and it's thick and it's pink.

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It tastes like sambuga.

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Yeah.

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But it's thick.

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Oh no.

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It's like texture.

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Yeah, I don't really like milk texture.

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And like that or like...

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It reminds me of that.

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And to be able to go on a longer to take good.

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The texture was like that.

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Do you ever have it?

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Do I own it?

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Oh, disgusting.

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Disgusting.

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And they gave me that.

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They gave me anti acids and then they gave me painkillers and stuff.

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And then they put like a drip in my arm for fluids.

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And look at the fucking bears on there.

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I was on it.

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Yeah.

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And that is, yeah.

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Why did they put in the top of your arm?

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I don't fucking know.

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I think it was his first time, I think, too.

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And it was a doctor.

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It wasn't even a nurse.

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And I feel like when I've gotten stuff done before in nurses, they're always better because

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they do it more often.

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Yeah.

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Because the doctor doesn't really do that.

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Like for you to do a nurse, because I was in a nurse's veil.

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So he was like, he sat me down on like a random wooden chair and I was doing it and he's

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like, are you ready?

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And I was like, yeah, he's like, are you ready?

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And I was like, oh my god.

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I feel like he was nervous.

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What did you do to me?

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Yeah.

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And I was like, oh my god, I'm going to pass out.

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I'm going to pass out.

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I'm going to pass out.

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I ended up being fine.

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But whatever it happens gave me very faint and like real nauseous.

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And then I was sitting there with the drip in and the drip ends.

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So if it's a band's blood starts going, remember it was a band's blood starts going.

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But if you get up the back, the blood starts getting sucked out of your arm.

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Yeah.

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So I get up and I'm sitting there with all the people and the little chairs with their drips.

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Like these all people and they were like, I think there's something in it and I look down and this is blood.

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I'm going to get sick.

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I'm going to get sick.

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I'm going to get sick.

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I'm going to get sick.

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And they were all like, oh no, when you were not today.

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And I had to run in my look.

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Yeah, everyone's stuck on their drips.

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Now I'm going down.

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Like there was nothing they could do.

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I had to run and get a nurse because there was no nurse round and they took it out and the blood went.

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I don't know where it went to be on the second.

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Where it was on her in the drip.

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Oh, even the thought was sick.

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And then I got the charge of like 5am or something and a cent on my memory.

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I feel so bad to say.

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My husband, my husband, Annie, no, didn't you?

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Yeah, it's gone bad.

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I was like, I feel very sick.

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I feel sick.

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I feel like my Annie said she was like, you shouldn't have said no, I'm staying here.

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Because I felt the exact same.

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I felt the exact same.

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Yeah.

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Like not one would be better.

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Like, I had more fluids and stuff.

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Still dehydrated next morning.

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What time would I go back to sleep?

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I don't like to sleep.

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I woke up at like 9 or 10.

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So I got a kind of a shit sleep and then I got sick again.

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And the pain was so bad.

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I was on the phone to add a screen.

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I was crying.

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It was a little horrible.

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Like, and the sequence I've come and I was like, I'm going to fuck you.

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I'm going to get sick.

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I'm going to get you hydrated and die.

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So I was like, so now it's panicking.

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And I honestly, it was just a good night's stop.

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And I hadn't even, like, I couldn't keep down food or water.

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And then I had a nap.

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And then I felt much better for my nap.

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Did you?

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Yeah, so I took my tablets and then I had a nap.

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No, it's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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It's tough.

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Yeah.

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And I'm, hey, good.

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It was not as powerful.

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Like, and I wasn't sick.

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That's the main thing that I didn't like.

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I've gotten sick.

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The cat was gone.

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Yeah, it appeared for my ring.

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It appeared for my ring.

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How do people do that?

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I've got it.

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When I came home.

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Sorry, sorry.

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It's just alcohol.

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And I'm up.

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No, I'm just pure bile.

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Oh.

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It was great.

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With the reason for my gastritis, which I have, is...

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Well, it can be from excessive amounts of alcohol.

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Is it?

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It can be, like, one of the main things.

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And you got it when you came home from a beach.

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I was like, I beat it.

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I beat it literally sent you on my leg.

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Literally sent me off.

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Literally ripped when someone...

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So when you're lying, never someone can be inflamed.

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My stomach's bad anyway.

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Yeah.

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Over there we weren't eating right.

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We weren't drinking right.

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We weren't drinking water.

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Yeah.

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We were barely eating.

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We were running down as well.

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So it was just...

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Everything just hit your arm at once.

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It was not just too much.

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It really was.

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But yeah.

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Right.

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Why didn't you remind it?

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12 hours in A&E, though, it was kind of like, I was on my iPad.

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I was like, little snottie kid with right.

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You know what the kids?

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Swing in a leg.

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I'm sure.

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I'm just chatting to people all day.

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What are you here for?

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You said there was a woman in there that was like, bloating her head and all.

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Nobody was saying to her.

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She was a nanny.

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Yeah.

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She was feeling that she went to long.

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She literally had a black eye and all like a big gush on her head.

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It was the saddest thing I ever like.

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And there's just a effigy in there.

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Yeah.

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Now everyone that had broken limbs got seen to very quick.

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It must be like a knot of a spizzy of department.

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There's something.

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Sorry.

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I know I was getting the X-ray.

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I got X-ray in my chest because I didn't think that it was such a knot.

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I don't know what it was.

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Um, there she was like, do you have any like jewelry on your stuff?

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And I was like, I just got my nipples pressed.

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Oh, shit.

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And she was like, can you get a thing?

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I was like, no.

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She's like, okay.

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How was she doing?

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I don't know.

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She put that mat over your chest.

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Oh, so you are able to get...

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Yeah.

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I looked, yeah.

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I think it was fine.

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I don't know.

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Maybe it's like a...

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For her, she's kind of thinking like, yeah, maybe it's more for her to be the only one.

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I just wanted to take it off.

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I couldn't...

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I had to make it...

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I had to make myself and stuff.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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It wasn't that too much.

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And they said I feel my legs.

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And I was like, oh my god, I have to look like I'm so scared.

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Oh, yeah, that was it.

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Did you get your Berlin Doria?

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No, I wouldn't have...

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Anything, I think, is like a hundred euros.

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I was like, yeah.

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I was so sad that there was no, but like there was a man talking to me and he was like,

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I was in a nice, I'll ask my looking for a bed.

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Couldn't get one.

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And now I'm in here, I'll like still, couldn't get one like...

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Because people on trial, it was about six people on trial, he's a girl, people like not even in a realm.

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I remember when my sister Quayva was in A&A for something, I just don't know how to count my what was.

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She was putting like a cupboard room, like it wasn't even a realm.

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Oh, it's like the little like, you're in like a little cube, wouldn't really.

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No, like it was literally like a, like a sock room.

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Oh god.

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And she was left on a chair, if I was at like, what was that?

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Yeah, I was on a chair.

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And I was in a bed for a little bit, and they fucked me up.

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They took it out, like, what did they say?

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You can't be here anymore.

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No, they were just like, you can just sit on your chair.

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Get out of the bed.

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Oh my god.

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Get out of here.

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You should've put it on, obviously, if you don't like when your mommy is walking to your room.

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Yeah, she would've actually put it in a bed.

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But in a fair and a so you don't want a bed, because that means that something's bad or wrong.

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Oh, okay.

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So they take you straight up for a set of out, like I'm actually grateful to him.

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Healthy.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Back to normal now again.

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Turn more the week.

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Did you listen to my one last week?

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No, I only got half a tree of the episode.

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Spinner.

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Oh, yeah, spider.

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And the sentence was,

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if,

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have a

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Spinner kazan or something.

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Like, yeah.

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Is that it?

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I know Spinner kazan.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Yeah, I'm basically German.

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Very good.

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Very good.

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Very, very fucking proud, see?

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Wait, how do you think it's spider?

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Did you just look it up?

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So, is it?

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I don't know, could even, and I was looking at the car at the car, and she was like,

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what are you looking at?

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Is it spider?

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And then I was like, ooh.

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Oh, is it a little bit new one?

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No, it wasn't spider, it's not in there.

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Oh, she thought it was just looking at it when she was terrified of it.

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Oh, very, very, very happy.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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I was like,

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Spinner.

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And I put it in on Google Translate lane, and got her to say it.

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Yeah, yeah.

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It was like,

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Spinn.

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So we don't have a Spinn box.

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Spinn.

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She kept thinking the word was Spinn.

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I was like, you don't know.

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Yeah.

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You didn't get to say it on like that, right?

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That's why I put it in on a sentence.

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I was like, right, I'll say the fourth three words in a sentence.

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And then she got it.

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So we got it.

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Spinn.

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Very fucking proud to go out of me!

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So what I'm gonna do?

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I think you might notice.

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Kankenhouse.

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Um, have you heard it?

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Do you recognize the words?

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I think so.

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Yeah.

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But I don't know what it is.

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It's house house.

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Yeah.

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Firehouse.

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No.

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Hospital.

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Yeah?

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Is it?

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Yeah.

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So it literally translates as sick house.

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Oh god.

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Sick house, yeah.

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A sick house.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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That's how they feel some of the words are.

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Yeah, yeah.

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They're broken down.

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Yeah, take that hospital in.

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You think about it, like freaks me out.

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What the fuck?

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Oh yeah!

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Hospital, like what?

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Ugh.

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With another sick.

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What when you think of her words are explained?

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Like how was the word word?

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How was water water?

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Like,

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Sheldon, I haven't a brain in a while.

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Yeah, no, I know.

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How last week.

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Yeah, but yeah.

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Yeah, who named that that?

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Who decided that was that, like,

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microphone?

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Yeah, it's a fucking silence.

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This is like the episode we did of...

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I'll think about it.

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I'll make sense.

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Yeah, words.

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I talked so much more stuff than sen.

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Yeah.

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Like how are we all understanding what you're to say?

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I know, yeah.

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I kept it languages work.

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How was what I say to you?

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How do you understand it, put in another language?

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Somebody else say it.

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Yeah, I don't understand that.

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Things to think about.

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Much to think about.

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Jesus.

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So this week we're going to talk about how to be single.

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Couldn't tell you.

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Struggling.

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Come on.

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No.

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Yeah, because we're also learning.

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Yeah.

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And I have an art skill that I have,

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but also we're going to talk about some stuff

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ourselves as well.

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Okay.

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And so, if you haven't listened to our episodes

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already on our breakups, that was

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out in June.

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And in June?

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Was it?

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Yeah.

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God, how many months ago was that name?

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Two months ago?

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Yeah.

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God's.

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Beautiful.

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We've been like,

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openly single since then.

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Oh, please single.

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Yeah, I know.

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It's like some kind of a bit like, um,

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yeah, how were you?

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How you doing?

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Oh, okay.

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Okay.

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It's been easier.

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It's definitely a good one.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Good.

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Yeah.

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And I'm just finding myself like

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thinking back on things being like, wow.

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Any time is actually healer.

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Yeah.

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I believe that.

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No, like because I feel like when

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you first wake up and people tell you,

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I never really, I'm like, fuck off.

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Yeah.

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I'm just never going to get over this.

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I just know if like time is a healer,

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I just think I'm just more like,

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not understanding of a book.

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I'm just like,

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it's what it is.

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I love that quote.

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Very, it's so simple, but so good.

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It is what it is.

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I can't if there's no.

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You can't force someone or something to change.

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Or like, if that was the direction,

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you're like, like the path you were going to go in.

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If it's always going to happen like so.

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Does that find dwelling on things?

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No, yeah.

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Of course, I obviously,

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in an ideal world,

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wouldn't have wanted things to have been like that.

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Like, but that's what happens.

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I mean, it's life.

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And yeah, I don't.

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How gorgeous are fucking.

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No, I don't be petty online.

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Yeah, I don't be.

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You don't be.

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Don't be doing none of that now.

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But I think I think I think the way some people act

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after a breakup online really shows their true character.

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Oh, really shows who they are.

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Yeah, and who they wanted to be.

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Like, I know we definitely both had a boyfriend

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never sharing another relationship online.

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Ever.

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No, never, ever, ever.

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Not because I'd be embarrassed of someone who I'm with

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or like, I'd be able to protect me and them.

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Yeah, like, no way would I do that again.

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Like, obviously, I might mention if I end up in

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another relationship or something,

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but I'm not going to do what I did in my last one

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and post-vailed at nal.

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But yeah, I think the way sometimes

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he's acting online is kind of a practical joke.

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Yeah, it's kind of a big to put it nicely.

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A bit of a kick sometimes.

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Yeah, but if that's what's getting him true today

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and he's getting attention to on that

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and if it's working for him.

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That makes him happy.

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Listen, if that's making him happy

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and I've said that to him so many times before,

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like, I really do wish

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whoever you end up with next, you're happy.

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Yeah.

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Like, I don't want to be better as far as you're

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for the rest of my life.

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I don't want, not that I want to be friends with you either.

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No.

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Like, don't I mean, but come here.

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I'm happy now.

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Yeah.

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Definitely getting happier as today is going on.

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And you don't have to show your happiness.

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No.

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Like, I don't have to prove to anyone online

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if I'm seeing someone or if I'm not.

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I don't owe anybody anything online.

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Whether I choose to share that or not is

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is your thing the same with you.

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Whether you choose to share that or not is up to you.

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But like, I think I keep saying that I wouldn't show online,

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but like, I think eventually when I do

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get in the relationship, like, I will, like, a little bit.

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Like, show the art.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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No, I wouldn't do what I do.

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But like, as well for you, you have different experience

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because of that you treated badly then.

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Yeah.

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But like, I didn't have the, so like,

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if the only thing that annoyed me

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and we broke up was people I was asking.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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But other than that, like, it was always nice to like,

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share and stuff.

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I wouldn't do it to the extent.

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No, Jesus Christ now.

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Yeah.

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Because people got very, too invested in my life.

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And you're as well.

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And I remember you saying to me like,

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like, yeah, because if you do,

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you're like, I love them together.

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And like, yeah.

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But some of them got like made.

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Oh.

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Some people are still.

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Yeah.

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Like, and I don't know how I'd feel.

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I know we had this conversation before about, like,

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leaving pictures and stuff up on Instagram.

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Yeah. Have you left pictures of?

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Yeah.

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So, I have.

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I haven't.

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I'm not taking anything down.

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Someone told me that was the IK.

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If you leave me.

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Yeah.

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I'm not, I've got your six years of pictures

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and delete them all.

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Also, like, there were a person in your life

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at that time.

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It was a man.

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It was a chapter.

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Yeah.

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The chapter in the book.

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Yeah.

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And I'm very happy.

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I just think I'm going to make people

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not text me or something.

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Oh, no text me.

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No text me anyway.

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No text me anyway.

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But maybe that's why.

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Yeah.

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We're not fucking missing out.

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Memo is answered.

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But like, that's also why I don't think I wouldn't.

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I wouldn't be plastering someone new

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or someone new.

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Because you could you look down a little bit.

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And there's some pictures of me, my eye.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Why?

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Yeah.

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And any more like, life learnings you found

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through the breakup.

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I reckon like that you've.

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That you like about being single.

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No.

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I think I'm just very a relate to your.

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Yeah.

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I really am.

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I'm sorry.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Well, it's wrong with me.

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That's not bad thing, look.

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I don't think I can be single.

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Like what was I like?

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And I'd be like, everyone was shocked.

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You were so.

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I didn't kiss on the road.

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Worn man.

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No.

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I didn't even want to speak to any.

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I didn't even speak to any.

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No.

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Didn't speak to one's.

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I thought I knew it was trying.

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And I're like, but I just.

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That's what's going on with me.

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But like, that's just the first.

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Yeah, it's not bad thing.

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My in love again.

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Shit.

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Are you in love?

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No.

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Are you?

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No.

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No.

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No.

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No.

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But I just can't be.

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Yeah.

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Well, I hate men so.

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Yeah.

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You still love the hate men, right?

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Oh, yeah.

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No, no.

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No, no, no.

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I hate men, but just.

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Oh, just a hell.

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Can't be bothered.

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No.

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Like just on my healing girl.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Like I feel like I'm at the end of my healing girl stage.

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Really?

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Yeah.

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I feel like when I was with Dan, I was like,

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it was such a healthy relationship that like,

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things I hadn't healed from before I met him

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have come back up now.

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And I thought it was healed from them

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because the relationship was so good.

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Yeah.

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But now that's over, I'm like,

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I'm actually not healed.

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No, you still haven't come back, Tara.

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I'm joined last week.

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Yeah.

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She was a lovely woman.

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Lovely.

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I didn't really like the old therapist.

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I had a new one.

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I did.

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No.

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They say that she didn't really get me.

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Yeah, you need to take two times.

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And I think a lot of me would get you.

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Yeah.

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But they say that they're saying you need to,

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yeah, you find your therapist.

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Like they don't find you kind of thing.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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And she knew and actually sound like

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the girl I had last year was so lovely.

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Really?

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I'll never get my four-star professional

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around.

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I just sat there and bawled for the whole thing.

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Just sobbed.

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I don't even think I can do that.

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I don't even think I spoke much.

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Yeah.

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But that says, I think that's more than this.

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That's more than this.

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Yeah.

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I was listening to her and I just wanted

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somebody who wasn't in my life to give you an opinion.

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Yeah, just to let it all out.

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Yeah.

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I think when I was, she sent me an Instagram down and say,

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ah, sure, I think she did follow me.

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And she just jumped like, yeah, that's everybody who's wrong.

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Has followed me by.

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No, no, yeah.

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She was mentioning things, I think, like, my 10.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Oh my god, that's good.

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Yeah.

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Oh, she's pretty proud of me.

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I hope she is.

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Ah.

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They're not looking at me saying she's back here.

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He's a pro.

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He's a pro.

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Yeah.

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And what was they saying there?

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Yeah, they were healing.

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Oh, yeah, when I was with my old therapist.

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Like sometimes with therapy, like I'm very,

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I don't trust my own decisions.

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And I like will question them even though I've a goffin and stuff.

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I want someone else to tell me to do something.

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It's like my old therapist was kind of like,

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waiting for her to tell me what to do in my life.

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And they can't do that.

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Yeah, I never knew that.

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They can't tell you what to do.

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So what do you think you're doing?

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Yeah.

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and tell you what they just advise you, is it just they give you the tools and you create the

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box, they give you the tools and you create the tool kits.

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Is it? Maybe, I don't know.

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Yeah, they can't, yeah, they're not allowed to tell you what to do.

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No, in that case you go and do it and then you blame them.

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I think so. I think it's just a thing, like, I think you just

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to protect themselves in that sense, but like, yeah,

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well, I think I just have things I need to, like, hear from that I forgot that we're there.

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I think such a good relationship was so healthy, like, yeah, it was not one time where I felt

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which I'm so grateful, like, like, on trust and or like, no, yeah, on edge, you're like,

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where it was I had in my last relationships, like, so I think I need to work on everything that I had

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from past relationships. So you were to end and take the, and then go forward from there.

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I feel very, yeah, yeah. So I feel we're being single.

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Yeah, because it's never something that I pictured. Yeah. I know what I am. I'm like, what like,

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I'm gonna raise my kids and I have to be in my head. Yeah. Come here.

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It's kind of like you have to relearn yourself again. You do.

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And like your personality, like, who am I with that person?

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Yeah, because you're mulled into one person and that relationship.

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Yeah, your life is just you and him. Yeah.

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You're mushed into one person. But like, even though you're with him and I was standing out like,

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we still, it's not like we ever like didn't see our friends.

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No, so in my head, I was like, oh no, I'm still very independent.

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And I'll pretend I take when you lose them and it's like, oh shit.

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Oh shit. They're still Irelas, even if you're really independent in the relationship.

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I think as well as not talking to someone 24 or 7 as well, like, that was my

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had to learn really. Yeah. I'm not a good taxi.

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I'm not good taxi with like FaceTime calls all the time.

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Yeah. So I'm like, oh, and the phone's not ringing.

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Yeah. That is weird. I'm not a rank my friends.

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I'm able to live. Yeah. But I think we're doing most better than we were.

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I think so. In that episode. Yeah.

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The days are getting easier and it's one of those things.

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Why do I keep thinking of it like the traffic?

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Oh, see what people give out about traffic and they're sitting in traffic and they get so,

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I can't I use to get you getting so angry about traffic. Like,

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okay. Fuming about traffic. I'm like, there is nothing.

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Oh, I always think I hate that too. Nothing you can do about it.

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You just have to wait. So just for consider and just not let yourself go.

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So yeah. Why are you getting so angry over something you can't control?

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Yeah. And that's kind of way I'm looking at nearly not even just my

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past relationship but life now this age. I'm just kind of like that.

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An analogy. If there's nothing I, yes.

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If there is, I can do to control it. Okay. I will.

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But if there's nothing I can do to to change things.

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If things are inevitably going to happen.

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Yeah. I'm not going to take it. I'm not.

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Get myself away. I'm not. I'm not putting myself in the position that I was in last year.

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It is what it is. It is what it is. Until it is.

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Yes.

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No, that's not true though.

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It's just that take each age of cons.

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That's what good life you feel.

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And you still get days when you're like,

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day by day. That's like to take it open down and you kind of like leveled

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up to like an even like, yeah. What do you think?

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I'm more kind of, I'm not as open down as I was.

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No. I don't like many way. Yeah.

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I true out a picture of friends because they don't like each other.

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I don't know if it was. Yeah.

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I true out a dressing gown.

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Yeah.

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But like it just was collecting just in the world.

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I was really excited about that.

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Oh, it was really having a great time.

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The frame was in the wardrobe.

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Because my made it for us.

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Oh.

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Yeah, we had two matching frames.

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But and it was like nine pictures of like just over the year.

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Okay. Yeah.

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She made them for us.

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And I put it in the bin pile,

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there they and I was like,

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my mom's like, why are you traveling that it was lovely?

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And I was like, what?

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She goes, those pictures are there.

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She was halfway up the stairs looking at us.

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She was like, they're gorgeous pictures.

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Are they?

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But there was one of me on my own at the bar.

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Okay. So she only seen me.

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She started and she was like, oh,

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bird. She just kind of came up and she was like,

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okay, okay.

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And then last night when I walked into my room,

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the one picture of me,

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she took it out with the frame and left on my bedside locker.

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So she was like, I don't know where the frame is now.

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I think she's sure about it.

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But stuff like that I found her to get rid of.

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His clothes and stuff.

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She just gave them back to him.

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Yeah, I gave them back to him.

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Oh, yeah, yeah.

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Key rings and shit again.

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Yeah.

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Okay, everything back.

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Did you?

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Yeah.

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Because I found me looking at them was just a constant reminder.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I still even get some snapchat memories and stuff.

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Yeah, I got one.

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So actually, yeah.

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But I just go on and delete it.

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Yeah.

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I don't look at it.

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Can't.

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Smile, isn't it?

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Isn't it?

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And I changed my Facebook to single.

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For the four of us, I'm in seven years.

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See, it might actually never change it into

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a relationship thing.

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Oh, did you know?

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I don't know.

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I don't use Facebook.

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Oh, I don't use Facebook at all.

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But just you want to do it.

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Yeah.

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Really, like you.

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Well, no, I think you did the first time.

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I thought I'd go.

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Let them fucking know.

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Oh, good.

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Right.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And you think, like, that I think for what

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looking at him, what he's doing, I can't even, like,

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boys kind of like break up very differently.

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They say that's the only thing.

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Oh, it's so true.

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I feel like boys at the start, like, yeah,

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single, like get my new girls with that.

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And then they like months out of a fuck.

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Fuck.

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What have I done?

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Yeah.

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And they actually are like fuck whatever they don't.

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And you think girls are the opposite?

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Yeah.

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We're too healed and we're too grown to be like, like,

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my two exes before a down out.

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That was the two times I was broken up with.

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And both times they try to get back to me.

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And I was like, so really?

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Yeah.

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It's always the way they try to creep back in.

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Because they see you down the road.

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And they're sad.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Always the way.

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And do you think you don't know?

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I'll never be friends.

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Yeah, we're right now, like, yeah.

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We're not always friends.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And I was care for them and stuff.

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Obviously, and like, him, I was in the future and stuff as well.

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Like if it wasn't on bad terms, I'd never rail something out.

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Yeah.

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In that case.

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Yeah.

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But for now, this is what I need to be selfish and think of what I need

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and what I want and what I.

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We were having self-gross on my.

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Self-gross on my.

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And self-gross on my.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I don't feel any different now coming into winter.

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I don't think I'm never going to end up like, I'm going to need a fatifour winter.

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I need a fatifour winter.

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I want to get like, I'm very focused on how I want to work with.

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Yeah.

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I want to get just try my self into that and just give that in my heart.

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Yeah.

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And just be myself.

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Yeah.

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As a part, I see men as a distraction.

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Not when you have a boyfriend, like, just, I mean, like, like, little men.

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I'm just a little bit.

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You happen to text me, but I'm just a little bit.

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I'm just a little bit.

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Yeah.

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And when you're first-hand, someone you have to be young, but like, how do you text them back?

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Yeah.

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And like, if I'm, I just can't, I need to just focus on me.

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Yeah.

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And live my life.

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So that's where we are now with our single stage.

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That's where we are.

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Yeah.

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And anyone else who actually got a few messages off of you saying that they're nearly single

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and they're like, seeing yous be okay.

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It's like, makes me feel like I'm gonna move.

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Okay.

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And you will be okay.

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It will always be okay.

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Yeah.

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You'll have shit days, of course, but.

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Yeah.

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God has our life planned out for us.

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They truly believe this.

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Like the whole thing will happen.

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Open till you die.

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I think he does.

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Really?

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Oh, yeah.

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Yeah.

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But we just don't know what it is.

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We're just looking like watching a movie on a plane.

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But that's so exciting.

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Yeah.

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So no, that you have that plan.

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Yeah.

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Like your opportunities.

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You can do it.

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What I say is you want to say, it's a change, right?

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Like, we might, we might not have met our husbands.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I thought that was my.

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Isn't that what it is?

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That is my.

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I don't know if I want to get married anymore.

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Oh, after last weekend, like, how we really?

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I'm having a weak long wedding.

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I can't.

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I can't.

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No.

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I don't know.

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What do you want to do?

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I'm going to get married in a dare manner.

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The reason I feel like I'm going to be like the auntie who like chose a career over it

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man.

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No.

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And like, it doesn't have any kids.

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It can't marry a lot with just stuff.

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I can't wait to get married.

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I used to feel like, I don't know.

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I used to feel like I'm not love.

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Yeah.

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If I were like, what was I would want to?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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That was it.

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That's awful.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I think if you compare this episode to like the one liturgy a week ago, that should give

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you his hope because two of us were depressed.

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That was a lot.

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That was a lot.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Like, we were.

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And that was a few months, if you wanted a couple months in.

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Yeah.

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It was fucking rocky for you.

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Yeah.

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But even compared that eight weeks ago, today, I like.

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So if you were looking back at yourself when you had just broken up, you can't know what

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three tips would you give yourself if you could like, tell to past you?

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Oh, God.

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I wish I'd, I wish I'd talk more about like the future.

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Like I know we say now, like you just take a day by day.

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Yeah.

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And back then, even I said, I'm just taking a day by day.

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Okay.

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But I wish I had told myself more, like Ellie, think of yourself this time next year.

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You'll be fine.

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Okay.

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You can set a mind instead of taking a day by day.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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I wish I'd reminded myself more like, mm hmm.

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You're going to look back at this and be like, oh my God.

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Yeah.

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And of course, you're going to have your days in your LL, feel like that.

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And don't suppress your feelings and let all that out.

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But yeah, I wish I'd remind myself more.

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that way.

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Yeah.

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It'll be cramped.

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Yeah.

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It'll always be wrapped.

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Yeah.

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I don't think it has three tips.

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But I think you need to go through the waves a bit.

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Yeah.

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You need to go through the motions of it.

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Yeah.

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I'd say let yourself be sad.

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Yeah.

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Definitely.

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Have don't force yourself not to feel sad.

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No.

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And cry.

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No.

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And cry.

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Surround yourself with people who, you know, have things planned to do.

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Yeah.

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Go off the rails for a little bit if you want, because we all need them.

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Sorry.

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Yeah.

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I'm not even going to, like, people say, don't turn to, like, going out and, like,

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I'm going to put, like, yeah, I'm not, like, advertising, but, like, yeah.

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Sometimes you do.

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Even if, even if, going out isn't your thing, like, doing just things that, like,

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don't know if it's the aim.

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No, not exactly, do it.

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Because that, like, maybe, was been scared to do or, like, you didn't do as much.

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Jettin' Doppel's poo is, like, meh.

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Yeah.

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Tryin' in just little things like that, like, we got tattoos and all.

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And then, yeah, just know enough pain is only temporary.

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Temporary guess where.

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Because it does.

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It does.

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Surround yourself with the nicest themselves where we give these advice.

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Not Bible.

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Um, so first one is, when every of my boyfriend has an argument or a disagreement,

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he always jumps to being defensive.

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He's always horrible to me, even after talking about it on a few different occasions.

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And he still seems to be doing it.

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And it's like, everything goes out of the window.

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I understand arguing is normal, but he takes it to another level and then just start there crying.

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Hurt and crying.

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It's embarrassing.

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No idea what to do because they never saw myself end things with him, but it's where he's starting to irritate me.

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Help.

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We have holidays booked too and I'm stressing.

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So he's just holding a grudge like I'm just dragging it out.

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So he's just a horrible bastard.

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God.

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He's gonna go on like.

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I think like we said, just there about when someone shows someone's true colors when they, when you break up,

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it shows their true colors like when they're angry, I think.

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Or sad or something.

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Doesn't it like when it's a different emotion?

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When yeah, when they're going through something like that, it can be nice when they're happy and like.

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Everything's going well, but what about when there's a problem and life gets.

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Yeah, is he going to treat you like that if like in the future like your kids or something bad?

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Yeah.

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How someone acts when they have big emotions like that says a lot of that.

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What's, um, what's that saying?

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Don't make a temper.

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Well,

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don't make a permanent decision by the temporary feeling kind of thing.

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So like he's having a temporary argument.

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Yeah.

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What he's permanently dragging it in horrible things.

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It's awful.

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Like being there sat and really hurting, really crying.

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And I think that like if someone can sit there and watch you be that's that.

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Yeah.

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That's like not right.

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No.

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You're being a horrible thing.

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Yeah.

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Being able to pinpoint exactly when you feel like that.

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Like if if your being made feel like that more than you are.

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Being happy.

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Yeah.

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That thing.

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That's a lot.

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Yeah.

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I think someone who cares about you should care if they're also making it upset.

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That's on him.

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I think someone who cares about you should care if they're also making it upset.

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That's on him.

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Yeah.

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I would end things.

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And he obviously knows that he's making it upset.

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Yeah.

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But it's so hard.

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Easy for me to say I would end things.

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But like when you're in it, it's so difficult.

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But also now that I have it and it's something like, don't know what now.

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Like it's a big decision, but you do.

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It's something you have to make.

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You come out the other end.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And it's like you have to put yourself first and say I'm not going to let myself sit there and go her all the time.

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By this man.

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And him get away.

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Would it like?

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And the hall is locked.

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And I'm not staying down here before.

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But I feel kinda like, go with your friends.

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Book it with some else and said.

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Yeah.

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The hall, I would feel like.

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Yeah.

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I wouldn't keep the hall they're saying in your head if I was saying with someone.

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Yeah.

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Cause you're probably going to find that hall they need her to even more.

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Yeah.

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There's nothing more to find on the hall this.

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Yeah.

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And longer you stay in it the longer he's going to hurt you and it's going to keep going.

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Yeah.

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You need to let him know like it's not okay for him to talk to like that even when he is angry.

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Yeah.

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Actually I'd have that come to him.

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Not mercy.

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Yeah.

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Just be like here it's actually.

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Were you not okay with your saying?

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No.

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And not normal.

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Yeah.

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They shouldn't be hard even like calling your horrible names.

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I wouldn't tolerate that at all.

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No.

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No.

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My tolerance with man now is.

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Yeah.

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I don't mean that.

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Down on everyone is not what I mean.

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No.

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When I got with down out I was like if he ever would call me name I'd beat gone.

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Yeah.

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No.

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I wouldn't.

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You can call me any name.

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No.

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Yeah.

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And then once they call you any once it's like they can call you again.

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They think that that line is broken.

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That's about it.

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Like.

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So let them know.

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Yeah.

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That's not okay.

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Yeah.

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And if he keeps down with you.

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If you tell someone something they're doing and they keep doing it.

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They know respect for you.

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No.

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They don't care about you.

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And that's just a truth.

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Like.

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So we love you.

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Love you.

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This guy has been text me and I'm just not.

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Yeah.

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And if he keeps down with you.

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And if you tell someone something they're doing and they keep doing it.

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They know respect for you.

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No.

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They don't care about you.

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They don't care about you.

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They're not saying what you're saying.

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But it's not just inviting me.

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As a woman and woman they're saying and I'm just not feeling it?

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I get pleasure.

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I don't know how I get pleasure.

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I don't know how to tell the lie.

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And I don't know who that is.

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No.

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Well let the girl hear you get some of my shade.

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I guess you know what it means.

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and with that amount of pressure in my heart,

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Okay why,

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yeah because I can't touch them.

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Gotta go.

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Come on.

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Okay.

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I just want to bring,

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Son.

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Reward.

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She'll choose everything.

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I'm in danger of your fear,

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now.

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Thank you. Oh Lord, are you giving them any indication here though that year?

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Well, so on tap because Sherry, he wasn't used to be a cat dog my kids and you're just

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like, yeah, I just stopped at XM. Yeah, go. So this is giving me major like love

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bum and vibes. That's bad. That's all love arms here and then obviously they like

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take it back and you get like addicted because you're like, oh my God. Yeah. Why?

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They like how they were. Yeah. Nars assist vibes. I also just tell them come here.

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You're actually doing too much. I would say I've said would you tell them like, no, I

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would know. I would know. I'd avoid that. I would do. Right, but you could be like, look,

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I'm actually like only I'd pretend as a money out relationship or like, I don't really

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want to be talking to anyone and this is just a bit too much for me. Yeah. Give them

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kind of an indication. Don't be like, who are you giving me the fuck an egg? Who are you?

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The walk an egg. Yeah. Oh, that is bad. That's kind of like me. Don't I feel like I'm like,

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I feel like I move things quite quick. Yeah. Someone like. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Very

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quick. Oh, you do. Yeah. Definitely. But sometimes that's just a personality, but I don't

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think you'd be talking about where the ladies are. Well, unless they are. It means like if

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they brought it up, I'm like, maybe. Yeah. But yeah. I don't I just don't like all the

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like small talking all the time. I'd rather like get right into like her to like me. I

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know. I'm sorry. I was trying to get over it. I was going on. Yeah. My two way three

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boyfriends. Oh, definitely my second and my two like my ex before Dano and Dano. I was

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like, are you going to ask me out? Yeah. And they have made the mask. We like. Oh, good

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geez. So why get me out to one again and the aunt engaged or propose and we're like,

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oh, yeah. So I'm just going on here. I just don't like my life's too short to be

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him and Han like. Yeah. Yeah. But yeah. And now I would end things with him. Just

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tell him or just stuff. I'd give him an explanation. But yeah. Yeah. I've never

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got to someone I've always had to tell them. And I always feel it's because I feel too

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guilty. Like I feel very formal, but like I was in Texas in this guy one time. And

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this wasn't really feel now. I had to give like a big paragraph of why I don't want

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to text anyone. I'm just I'm like, I'm just I'm like, I'm just not feeling this like

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I'm going to have a great trip of like all this. And I just felt bad. I was like, if

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you leave someone ghosted, like you're leaving them on. Like question themselves. And I

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don't like that. I've got one one request like question myself. So I would tell maybe I

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wouldn't even go to them. Maybe that's a stretch. But like I think I'd let it kind of

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just physically a bit like, yeah, but this man isn't going to let his kids. This man.

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Yeah. This one we send you love let us show the door. I feel like look at what we call

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them. Look Bob. Bob. I'm not on the mouse. Yeah. Yeah. Just I actually kind of want to

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focus on myself for a little while. And don't really want to be talking to anyone.

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PS or else. And I feel like this. I feel like it's just getting a bit too much and too

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serious for what I wanted. You're such a lovely guy. Literally right now. You're such

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a lovely guy and maybe we'll rekindle in the future. Yeah. Not to love. That's a nice

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one. Yeah. And I'll say the weekend look because you get your hopes up now. Oh yeah.

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I'll be like, you're such a lovely fellow. But I just not what I'm looking for right now.

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Yeah. So the last one. Hey girls, bit of a long one. To use ever feel pressure between

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the Germany healthy, etc. I fall on an after fitness wagon all the time. Can never understand

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why I can keep up feeling guilty for not going not enough.

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plan can ruin my week but i want to say in bad for the day i will

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but if i want to say in bad for the day i will

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how do you steal a thing shit in this way if you's ever to

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i've been to the gym for several

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it's currently August

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are you pro? yeah

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oh because the boobs yeah

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and how do you feel?

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don't make her

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the body's a shell that sounds awful actually

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don't talk to her i'm just like we did say it's foreign

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broadcast and i go through phases of it like yeah

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someone said it to me before actually

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this one like yeah we're something they were like i'd use me flat in the gym all the time and i was like

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you're like

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the grandiser isn't it?

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like i go through phases but i'm

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but Tony cause you're on instagram that like if you're there you like you'd be fun or

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yeah so that's why people are like would think that like

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yeah yeah i would say whoever that was

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last or right now the last thing on my mind is the gym

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yeah i mean healthy and all the time

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i feel shit when i eat shit

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yeah but

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but

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i'm just in this mind frame of i sound really care right now

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yeah i'm not trying to impress anyone like i just

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i don't know if i feel like being on and off is better than being off all together

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yeah yeah yeah

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do you have any if you've got your phases if you're

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get like you're doing at one stage

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yeah yeah but what i see as good like you're getting a bit fit

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you're getting good new to the gym and then if the next week all you want to eat

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my thumbs like yeah

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bad luck i mean yeah

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one week on one week on

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um but now i like i find i have a train it's so

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having her like keeps me accountable but like if i don't do something i'd be like

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denna feel bad

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you would do because i'm like i have on the app and you have to take it off and like if that's not

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yourself i'll be annoying me i use an app you know i'd actually add that

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my fitness pad bottle of water all that now i don't do no do you know i think that's so

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unhealthy really yeah i only do it for my like to get my make sure i get on protein and it wouldn't

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be too stress with calories right so i make sure i get enough because i know

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i don't have enough calories it would never be like i need to eat this like

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soul feel because i eat a lot of calories like yeah like i know i'm obviously no expert

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to be even talking about this like i think the whole

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like restriction yourself of our foods you can eat and stuff i think that's such an

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unhealthy way of yeah i'm thinking yeah i should be able to do things like

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you should be able to eat what you like when you're like

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within reason yeah for yeah i don't put much pressure on myself feel like as long as i'm in the gym

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yeah then i'm like well i need like you i get all the fusions i see people

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on Instagram it's like you look so consumed with this yeah in such an old way every day thing yeah

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like you look like you live no other life mm-hmm then just that yeah like i don't know

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it was set yeah i had a training before and like he had me on like such low calories

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and training all time with five seven days a week no i was in even on my rest days i was in doing

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cardio and like i got so 10 for me like for my yeah yeah like even looking back on a quattro

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like and i didn't want that yeah for he was just like no like i didn't need to like it was so bad

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like i know it is hard i was fine that balance and stuff but like that wasn't balanced that was

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acting as if i'm prepping for a show for eat like no bodybuild yeah yeah fine and the balance of like

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you want to work out you but you also want to be able to live you're like life yeah you want to eat

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go but you also don't just want to eat fucking let's leave for breakfast and to do yeah and you

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don't want to feel guilty if you do want to eat something back you want to have a brownie eat the brownie

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babe like yeah yeah yeah i'm just yeah i've never had thank god Jesus touch words and i know so many

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girls and boys go through i've never had an on on on healthy relationship with her but um

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you can definitely see like how much you can consume people and i've seen scrims of

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tons health health no it's scary yeah even like all them run years out tumbler and all when the

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tie gap was in fact like like all these exercises you get tie gap but the tie gap is your body

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composition it's not your body yeah have your hips are placed like that's not something you can

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you can get no like unless you absolutely stare at yourself and like no it's mental when you think

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that is it that's how sad well i don't like don't put yourself under too much pressure like

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shaleen said being on and off is better than being off yeah all the time yeah if you want to be off

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and you're not into the gym and stuff yeah that's fine too it's so it's so hax is so many like

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conflicting oh no decisions yeah like then it's like also you have to be like if you want to be

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in the gym like it's dedication if you want to get what's hard i know if you're not feeling

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that you're not feeling but sometimes also today you're not feeling the best workout to have

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yeah when you do go do you know so i need to go back a sub rocky yeah very easy to say my gym

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does be sweat and no to warm but aircon want to go straight i had to get another new gym card and

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i know like the devil on my i want to relax my eyes because i like this but that was their

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dilemmas for this week if we have more on Monday's in extra juice our bonus episodes

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and tomorrow we have dilemmas live oh my god live dilemmas oh we're out of think i'm really

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good advice i'm not i'm not be allowed to sit in the couch like this i'm literally sitting here

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my legs are spread i'm half asleep i'm the good well that took us from improperly like i know yeah

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book fuck we fun yeah next time we're in this studio it'll be all over i know

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jealousy after stand on ticsock is like enjoy the butterflies enjoy the uh

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oh do you ever see that no oh i'm gonna do a live video oh yeah

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next you have super skips we take one topic based on the reset episodes and because the

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podcast is home i drink we either sip or we skip um this easy super skip is texting someone

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super skip like what do you mean like what do you rather text someone or call someone like

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is that what you mean just text man jana skip skip i just know what i like i discovered that

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i actually don't like meet someone online like obviously i know it's different because i

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texted him but i would i've never like went on a day or like i was someone who's texted me

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yeah i've only ever texted a sex with someone twice myself and then everyone else has

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own ever been people like me first yeah yeah because if i see someone if someone texts me

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and i click on their instagram like even though they might be a good looking person i like i just

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get the dick yeah i'm not gonna text it ever again i just said no that's not even the dick it's just

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like i like to know someone's unless i text them for it but i like to know like they're about it

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or something it's like i can't be attracted to someone until i meet them i think i think in that

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i think i'm an instagramer or what it's not even an instagram but just in general like i'm not on

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any date after i'm but like i think i was out of time to get to know someone online that you don't

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know like if i know of someone yeah through someone or something when they text me i think i'd

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yeah i'd be more inclined to text them but rather than a complete and order stranger yeah yeah

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true but also do you have people to be dating multiple people like you have to tell them the same

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factor yourself and over and over again people love that just constantly being entertained

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with people are entertaining people you forget what the italian so yeah but you're like

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you're gonna get in here what's in here yeah i don't know the taxing thing i just think it takes

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up a lot of time yeah because i like when i'm texting someone i will be good like i'll get

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refined so then it takes up space in my brain that i have to keep it on it it's so different

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years but i like whenever you're a teenager all you did was text people oh yeah hey twale you look like

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between msn bivo the phones yeah then there's not key a key platforms on the Samsung ones and all

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you fell off there i don't think i was like i don't think i was a big textor no it's younger i was

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bbm and i really don't remember being there i think i was a bit awkward right now actually

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yeah i don't know what was the great texty but no i actually'm really good

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textor now i think i would be like yeah some of the partners sure have a guy i actually i'm like

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i just feel like i'm very like yeah you're very entertaining yeah like your

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tolerance it was with me didn't i don't know what's going on with you yeah the single

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means you're very funny very funny yeah well now i just need to find a man to be funny no i don't

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even want to film do you know no no i really couldn't think of that works now like someone to just

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be reliant on me and for their happiness like i just listen to hold me when i'm hungover

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well yeah without you find but like other than that can you rent a man for all my own

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hopefully yeah so taxing is a skip for me i'm a skipper yeah but then again you might meet like

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might someone meet someone and you want to talk to them now but like i'd love if they were a phone

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car person like really you like just call every few errors just to check it yeah and that's it

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not taxing like oh why did you stop taxing someone like like say if i'm like 35 and still single

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which is probable like what do you still do taxing like a little thing you know like

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when we're younger and baby sexier what's up kiss kiss yeah like on up much you yeah

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How do you start a conversation now?

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At this age.

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Someone's having a conversation with a lot of them.

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You're like, just at home with my child?

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Like, you don't text them, what's up now, do you?

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I feel like it's just a constant conversation that happens.

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It's not like you don't end up with a lot of research next day.

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You have to be way more constantly trying.

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Because back then it was okay to say what's up with now.

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They have to think of like chatpline.

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They're like, replied to a story or something like that.

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I don't think men text us because they might think we don't reply.

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But I did just say I'm not going to reply.

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Yeah, no, but like, yeah.

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It's really probably a waste of time.

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I wouldn't actually recommend.

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Sorry about that.

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Yeah, but like I said, I'd rather meet someone person.

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Mm, more tryable.

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There's no one in Dublin so.

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Dublin's a very small place.

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Happy to.

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Very small.

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And things, I feel like things always make sense.

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You ever get you bad things happen to you.

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But then one good thing happens and you're like, if they happen to happen, this one thing

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It's going to be a day for us where every realization and you're just like, oh.

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